A Kind and Gentle Loving Heart
We mainly grow
Through bearing hardship
We tend to learn
By living pain
We're able to
Enjoy the sunshine
From wading through
The pouring rain
Embracing hard times
Help us learn
To trust that good days
Will return
And every cloud
Has silver linings
And every minus has a plus
They'll be good times
They'll be bad
It's the same for all of us
We're given what we need to grow
Enough to almost fall apart
But riding through it helps us know
A kind and gentle loving heart |
Let Go and Forgive
Rising rage overwhelms me
As I think about what they did
I try to keep away from them
I keep my feelings hid
But a fire roars within me
Towards a certain few
How they judged me wrongly
And their actions, once I knew
I feel my fury soaring
As I put words to pain
Stifled emotions evolve
Over and over again
The hurt I feel inside
Is as fresh as the day it dawned
And the love I thought was real
I've well and truly mourned
Innocence and dignity
Got me through that time
I always had a peace of mind
I didn't commit a crime
And to all the people,
Who put me through that pain
I hope you learned enough to know
You wouldn't do that again
Forgiving can be hard to do
It's now time to let go
And bear no more angry scars
I need to let love flow
Today I close the door behind
I forgive, let go and forget
And take from those tough few months
My hardest lessons yet |
The hand of my fate
Like a bolt from the blue
Accused of a crime
That I didn't do
Causing hell at the time
Every stare, every car horn
Became about me
Every laugh, every whisper
Stopped me feeling free
Every exchange of words
Began a new chain
Of deciphering meanings
Over and again
Calls on my phone
Knocks on my door
Not taking face value
But looking for more
Every outing became
A big, immense deal
Trying to fathom
The imagined from real
I couldn't look up
Kept my head buried down
Frightened to take in
What was around
So I made my world smaller
I kept myself in
But noise from the outside
Scared me within
I became very anxious
Living in fear
Convincing myself
Madness was near
Then my cry for help answered
I started to heal
My doctor and nurses
Helped me see what was real
And as I got better
Knowing how it took hold
I watched all the layers
Of paranoia unfold
The hand of my fate
Sent something along
Which weakened my mind
That had always been strong
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My Darkest Hour
It's not just the horror
Of a person's false claim,
It's the band-wagon jumpers
That blacken your name
It's not just suspicion
That causes your hell
It's the following and hounding
That compounds it as well.
It's not just observing
But making it known
To the local community
Accusations were thrown
I hit rock bottom,
A deep, dark despair
I reached out for someone,
But no-one was there.
Somehow, I got through it
Came out the other side
With all the emotions
Of the rockiest ride.
A time to feel anxious,
A time to cry
A time best forgotten,
Moved on from, passed by
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